And here we are again

 Hey guys,

long time no speak.Sorry about that,life gets in the way sometimes and takes full charge ahead and then here you are years later reminiscing about the past memories good and old.

How is life treating you ? been a tough few years for us all for sure but we will get to where we want and need to be and that's the main thing,keeping holding on.whether we know it or not we have got this.

Writing this post now i'm reminded of how much i enjoy writing and how it's an escape for me.i am not the most intellectial person and by no means won't win any awards for my writing,but it feels good to be sat on my laptop tapping away at the keys.(having to correct all my spelling mistakes haha that's one thing that will never change.

so i am 25 now wowie they do say time flies when you are having fun,but i wish it could slow down a little so we can enjoy ourselves in the moment.

the date today is 19th december 2021 and i have just wrapped a few christmas pressies.

2022 is round the corner and i still think we are in 2020.

i have got a good feeling about the new year ahead and really think i am going to accomplish some goals and become the best me finally.

this post doesn't really have a purpose just a little diary for myself and to say hey.do people even do blogs anymore?

whats your favourite memory of 2021 ?

leave me a comment below i would love to hear from you

if i don't speak to you before christmas,i hope you have a lovely time with family and loved ones and best wishes for the new year.

love Carla xx

Worry

                                            

I heard this quote whilst listening to a @poppyjamie podcast today @happynotperfect and it stayed with me!

Why spend time worrying about non significant things, when the worrying won’t stop them from happening,but if anything make me experience them twice!

Easier said than done when you are a natural worrier,but one day at a time...... I’m going to join my worries and realise that it’s all going to be ok 👌

You come across as a doer rather than an achiever.

You come across as a doer rather than an achiever.

These are the words that someone said to me once,they seem to be stuck in my mind.

Are they right ? 

Do I do a lot and not actually achieve results?

What is a doer - the person who does something.A person who acts rather than merely talking or thinking.

Associated with positive words - worker,organiser,activist,succeeded and ACHIEVER.

So is it possible to be both a doer and an achiever ?

What is an achiever - a person who achieves a high or specified level of success.

Key words - performer,worker,entrepreneur and DOER.

“In basic terms a doer is someone who simply lists their responsibilities and duties.”

“An achiever reframes those responsibilities into their accomplishments.”

“Doers are practical, but friendly and they usually have a great sense of urgency and like to be in charge. They focus on tasks.”

“An achiever covers quantifiable improvements rather than task focused. They use powerful and compelling content to showcase their shining moments.”

So do I just list me responsibilities and tasks rather than actually putting pen to paper pardon the pun and get out in the world and make shit happen.

The example that comes to mind is Someone that tells everyone that they are going to the gym or a certain exercise class in order to push and give themselves motivation to actually go.As opposed to someone who tells themselves,right tone to go to the gym and off they go,get on with the task and boom they’ve achieved a task off there check list.

I was given the advice from a careers professional who doesn’t know me as a person,but only from my CV.

I can’t help but feel I have taken this sentence to heart.Has it struck a chord with me personally.

I am always going on about getting a good job,making lots of money and being successful.In order to life to the highest and afford an apartment in London.

My latest is that if I haven’t achieved a well paid job by June,1/2 way through the year in order of me just repeating the year with no change.I am just going somewhere away.Do not know for how long or where,but a destination out of the UK.Travelling.

Maybe I need to be more conscious of how I’m spending my time and that I make the most out of it and achieve great results.

What’s your opinion on this ?

Carla 

7 days,then repeat

7 days in the week then just repeat again 

Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday,Thursday,Friday,Saturday,Sunday repeat forever 

We wake up every morning we are so grateful to open our eyes and be alive each and every day.

Work 5 days play 2.How does that work? Who made the rules ?

Who’s to say everyday shouldn’t be a Friday.

Don’t dread Mondays,it’s just as good as any other.

It is what we make it!

Living for the weekend.STOP.Yeah we have 365 days to live but life’s short.

Do one thing that scares you each day.One think that makes you a better stronger person.Lots of things that you love and most of all be happy ❤️

Life is for living.

So live in the moment and live the life you want to live.

As after all one day ..... it will end 🌎

Am I too much?

Am I too much ?

Am I ok ?

He’s not good for me but I’m still crazy about him.

The thought makes me act how I don’t like.Am I going psycho ?

Some people really aren’t good for your health.

What am I doing? Why ? I know it’s wrong. I know it’s bad but that doesn’t stop me.Honestly girl you are worth more than feeling like this. 

Stop it girl.Get over it.Grow and move on.

Just want some clarification,then I’ll get on with me.

Boy oh boy you did it again 

XOXO

Here’s to putting us first!

“Nothing breaks like the heart-nothings going to save us now” 

Finding myself in my room in the dark listening to a breakup playlist crying my heart out.Not even had a break up but just needed some emotional girl love songs as I’m so over guys for the last time.

2019 is my year for knowing my worth!! Which for all of us girls is more than we ever know and is limitless.

22 and still getting sucked into the lies of immature worthless guys.There the worthless ones who don’t appreciate you and don’t you ever think less than that.

My time is precious and it’s mine! To not be spent on people who aren’t willing to use there time.

Something i don’t seem to get “if someone wanted to talk to you or be in your life,they’d make an effort”.

Fucking feelings aye! Need to start taking things as they are in the moment and nothing more.

Here to putting us first!

Carla xoxo

He’s not that great!

How to tell yourself that a guy doesn’t give a fuck about you ..... if he did he’d make an effort to call.

“Listen here you beautiful bitch.Stop crying over a fuck boy who doesn’t give a shit about you and find yourself a real man who will make you the centre of his entire fucking world.”

Stop giving a damn about the guy who doesn’t give a damn about you 

If your not on his mind,he shouldn’t be on yours 

He’s not that great

You are better and worth so much more 

I’m sorry but he doesn’t give a shit about you! So move on and stop wasting energy and precious time 

You already know the truth 

Realise .... you did nothing wrong 

You are a badass sassy queen stay strong and put you first 💁🏻‍♀️😘

A few days away in Brighton

After returning to work after my summer holiday I had a serious case of the holiday blues!

I was questioning my current role in my career and life plan all together.Just being a miserable B****

So I booked myself and my mum a couple of days in away to Brighton 😊

60 miles from the hustle of the city and away from daily realities.

Theirs  something about the sound of the sea and the seagulls that is so calming.

We stayed in the Amsterdam hotel which with a sea view and balcony over looking the pier was the best view to wake up too.

Just spending my time with my mum walking around the uniquely beautiful lanes and exploring all the hidden treasures that Brighton offers.Discovering coffee shops with yummy treats.

Of course eating fish and chips and drinking jugs of pimms on the pier in the sunshine is optional and weather permitting 😂 I highly recommend!!

I could have spent hours sipping my coffee on the beach looking out to the sea thinking about life and what makes me happy.

"Brighton really did brighten my spirits" Sometimes a few days spent using social media to a minimum is also great,if maybe your feeling in a bit of a funk like me or as I have described as my "quarter life crisis "

But now I guess back to reality and at least I'll be going back with a smile on my face and memories of a lovely few days 😘

Until next time .......

Carla XOXO

Self Love

Most of my teenage/adult life I'm 21 this year 😱which is so crazy it's scary.I amongst thousands even millions of other people am self conscious.

People are far to busy with their own lives to be looking what your  doing!

I'm always putting my self down about my appearance and comparing myself on social media.

So many things in my life are put on hold,for when I get to my goal weight.Its like I'm expecting to get to a certain weight and become happy and confident! I've been my goal weight before and that was not the case I still wasn't happy with my appearance.

Anyway going off track.As I'm getting older I'm more body conscious than ever,however I have a slightly different outlook and I'm more interested in being fit and healthy.

Whilst I've been away on holiday in Greece,Where I am currently sat around a pool writing this post.

I could be sat around the beach in my swimwear sweating to death as I'm covered up in a towel or I could embrace what I have in my lovely tankini set.

Of course at the back of my mind theirs the devil saying "everyone's looking at you because your huge" when really no ones  looking at me or judging me for what I look like.Or even if they are their judging eyes aren't going to affect my day!

I'm not embarrassed to say that I know I am on the larger side and always admit it in a jokey way that I'm huge but I'm healthy and strong so why am I complaining.

Our bodies are the only ones we're going to have and yes we can change them but maybe their not so bad as they are and we should be proud! 

We're all so harsh on ourselves and should love our bodies more for all the good they 

do for us!

I'm really interested in learning more about self love so if anyone has any tips or book recommendations,I'd love to hear from you!

Thank you 

Carla X

Making a pact with myself

Making a pact with myself to have monthly check ins with myself,to see if I've achieved anything: if I'm happy with people who I'm surrounded by and how my mental health and wellbeing are,to see if I'm closer to reaching my goals.

To cut down on social media and stop comparing myself to others,or be influenced by other peoples lives.

To wear what I want and to be more optimistic and nice to everyone I meet,to try and be a sunshine on someone's day.

Carla 😊

Tangled / PT 2

I'm 2015 I did a blog post labelled Tangled,to sum it up it was about being confused or overthinking.

For a while now I've been feeling really down so I thought I would extend on the subject.

Our feelings and emotional well being are personal and sometimes quite a touchy subject that can be painful to talk about. As we as human beings don't like opening up and being vulnerable.

In my opinion if we all talked about our feelings more often,then some of us may be reassured in knowing it's ok to feel not great, that we're not alone.

Otherwise your left with only your own worries of tangled emotions swishing around in your brain almost like a washing machine spinning around all day long.

I'll be ok and then find myself feeling sad and unfulfilled and questioning every life decision I've made.I compare myself to everyone on social media who is my age and how amazing their careers are as apposed to mine.

Please let me know if you feel even similar in the slightest.

Do you think we should talk about our emotions more ?

Carla X

Girl Boss Netflix Review

I want more.....Girl boss I physically need more Sophia in my life.

I'm praying that there are many more seasons to come.

Well that was emotional.I feel like I'm in a new chapter of my life now.

I have just spent my weekend watching Girl Boss season one.13x30 min episodes = 6.5 hours of my life watching a Netflix series and I don't regret a second of it.

Wow that all just blurted out into words!Get if together Carla.

Inspired

Motivated 

Fun

Ambitious are just a few words used to described my emotions whilst watching Girl Boss.

"Sophia, an anarchist misfit, discovers a passion for fashion, becoming an unlikely businesswoman in the process. As her business grows, however, she has to learn to cope with life as her own boss."

Britt Robertson fitted the part perfectly and she is one of my favourite Actresses so I was even more obsessed.

Girl boss is a greats series for Teenage/young adults to show them to never stop dreaming,you are capable of anything you desire.

I feel really empowered and am definitely going to buy Sophia Amaruso Girl boss book.

GIRLS ROCK

The show really connected with me and I feel passionate about it. I've been thinking a lot lately about my career and to start acting on my dreams,as times only passing by.

What's even more awesome is that the show is actually based loosely off of real events that happened to Sophia.

"Adulthood is where dreams go to die"

I would 100% recommend Girl Boss to you and I see a future for more series.

Now it's time for me to start working on my dreams and for me to be a #GIRLBOSS

Have you read girl boss ?

"Love you in case I die!" 

Carla X

Am I A True Sagittarius ?

All credit to the idea of this post to @ellamaygarrett 

https://ellamaygarrett.com/2017/04/17/am-i-a-true-libra/

Let's see if I live up to being a true Sagittarius according to zodiac signs.

Strengths 

1- Generous 

2-Idealistic 

3-Great sense of humour 

I would like to say that I am generous as I love giving presents and helping people out whenever I can.

In terms of idealistic,100%.I am such a daydreamer and at times can be slightly unrealistic.Sometimes my mind can go to places and I'm like where on earth did that come from.

What's the fastest cake in the world ? ........  Scone and when I've eaten it,it's scone :) 

So you could say I have a great sense of humour.I can be very childish sometimes but it makes me laugh so that's good ahah.

Weaknesses 

1-Get bored easily 

2-Careless

3-lack patience

All I can say is YES! I get bored so easily.

I can't agree with being careless and would say I worry to much to be careless.

Hmm lack patience.It would have to depend on what situation,I'm very patient with people and if I'm trying to do something and I can't,I might have a bit of a huff but I won't stop until it's done.

Sagittarius in a nut shell

"Sagittarius seem to be guided by luck, good things happen to Sagittarius and this is usually because of their optimistic outlook and positive disposition which attracts good fortune. Despite hardships, Sagittarius is always optimistic that good things will happen tomorrow and the future carries good luck. Sagittarius have a vibrant, expansive personality that is free like a bird, Sagittarius cannot be contained. They are full of curiosity and they always look forward to the future, never dwelling on the past. Sagittarius are detached from emotions because emotions hold a person back, they do not like to talk about their feelings, they simply experience them and move on. Sagittarius can be reckless and irresponsible because they will jump at a suggestion of something new before they weigh the advantages and disadvantages"

I do always try to be optimistic and look to the future,I'm a very curious person too.

I agree with some aspects with my zodiac sign.

I also use an app called Daily horoscopes,where I read my horoscope for the day. NOT AN ADD

Thank you to Ella for creating this fun post!

What star sign are you ?

Carla x

Disneyland Paris at 20

Experiencing Disney land Paris as an adult has always been on my bucket list.I went to Disney as a child and wanted to relive the magical fairly land.

Earlier on this year,after much persuasion me and my sister headed of on the Eurostar and headed to Disney land.

On this day it was -3 degrees,you'd never have guessed as the whole trip, the castle was lit up by sunlight. It really is magical!

Some people have the theory that Disney is only for kids.Personally I think they're just being boring and don't have an imagination!

But as Walt Disney said "Adults are only grown up kids anyway".

The feeling of walking into the park and seeing the castle is magical.

There's something so overwhelming about being able to walk around carefree wearing sparkly Minnie Mouse  ears no matter what age.

I found my self with a constant smile on my face and feeling so fulfilled.

It's probably one of the only places on earth where you can sing,dance and skip around without a concern in the world.

The only bad thing about my trip was that 3 days wasn't enough and now I want to be Peter Pan and never grow up.

Being somewhere so happy and truly magical, puts everything into perspective and has given me the travel bug, I already had even more.

Wanderlust / a deep urge to travel 

If Disneyland Paris is on your bucket list I highly suggest booking a trip to have the most memorable happiest time of your life!

Who wants to come to Never Land with me ?

What's on your bucket list ?

Carla x

13 Reasons Why / My Opinion

I was looking forward to the release of 13 reasons why on Netflix.

I've never read the book but I'd heard great things.I had also seen it advertised that Selena Gomes was executive producer.

13 reasons why is one of the best high school dramas,I've ever seen.

 I suggest that you watch the series first and then we can discuss your opinions too!

Also I'll add this isn't a review in any detail.Just my opinions.

It's really uncensored and the teens use "fuck" a lot.It shows a real representation of being in high school,although my school life was easy compared to Hannah's.

The show at times is extremely dark and contains some rape scenes which might be hard to watch for some viewers.

The dark nature helps it to be as realistic as it needs to be and it doesn't gloss over any details.

I binge watched the series and watched all episodes in 48hrs.

It's a great watch for Teenagers/young adults.

Summary :"Follows teenager Clay Jensen, in his quest to uncover the story behind his classmate and crush, Hannah, and her decision to end her life."

You'll be hooked in and probably in tears at some point throughout.

I highly recommend '13 reasons why'.

I also hope that their is another series as there is potential to be.

Have you watched the series ?

Who was your favourite character?

Carla X