Here’s to putting us first!

“Nothing breaks like the heart-nothings going to save us now” 

Finding myself in my room in the dark listening to a breakup playlist crying my heart out.Not even had a break up but just needed some emotional girl love songs as I’m so over guys for the last time.

2019 is my year for knowing my worth!! Which for all of us girls is more than we ever know and is limitless.

22 and still getting sucked into the lies of immature worthless guys.There the worthless ones who don’t appreciate you and don’t you ever think less than that.

My time is precious and it’s mine! To not be spent on people who aren’t willing to use there time.

Something i don’t seem to get “if someone wanted to talk to you or be in your life,they’d make an effort”.

Fucking feelings aye! Need to start taking things as they are in the moment and nothing more.

Here to putting us first!

Carla xoxo

He’s not that great!

How to tell yourself that a guy doesn’t give a fuck about you ..... if he did he’d make an effort to call.

“Listen here you beautiful bitch.Stop crying over a fuck boy who doesn’t give a shit about you and find yourself a real man who will make you the centre of his entire fucking world.”

Stop giving a damn about the guy who doesn’t give a damn about you 

If your not on his mind,he shouldn’t be on yours 

He’s not that great

You are better and worth so much more 

I’m sorry but he doesn’t give a shit about you! So move on and stop wasting energy and precious time 

You already know the truth 

Realise .... you did nothing wrong 

You are a badass sassy queen stay strong and put you first 💁🏻‍♀️😘

A few days away in Brighton

After returning to work after my summer holiday I had a serious case of the holiday blues!

I was questioning my current role in my career and life plan all together.Just being a miserable B****

So I booked myself and my mum a couple of days in away to Brighton 😊

60 miles from the hustle of the city and away from daily realities.

Theirs  something about the sound of the sea and the seagulls that is so calming.

We stayed in the Amsterdam hotel which with a sea view and balcony over looking the pier was the best view to wake up too.

Just spending my time with my mum walking around the uniquely beautiful lanes and exploring all the hidden treasures that Brighton offers.Discovering coffee shops with yummy treats.

Of course eating fish and chips and drinking jugs of pimms on the pier in the sunshine is optional and weather permitting 😂 I highly recommend!!

I could have spent hours sipping my coffee on the beach looking out to the sea thinking about life and what makes me happy.

"Brighton really did brighten my spirits" Sometimes a few days spent using social media to a minimum is also great,if maybe your feeling in a bit of a funk like me or as I have described as my "quarter life crisis "

But now I guess back to reality and at least I'll be going back with a smile on my face and memories of a lovely few days 😘

Until next time .......

Carla XOXO

Self Love

Most of my teenage/adult life I'm 21 this year 😱which is so crazy it's scary.I amongst thousands even millions of other people am self conscious.

People are far to busy with their own lives to be looking what your  doing!

I'm always putting my self down about my appearance and comparing myself on social media.

So many things in my life are put on hold,for when I get to my goal weight.Its like I'm expecting to get to a certain weight and become happy and confident! I've been my goal weight before and that was not the case I still wasn't happy with my appearance.

Anyway going off track.As I'm getting older I'm more body conscious than ever,however I have a slightly different outlook and I'm more interested in being fit and healthy.

Whilst I've been away on holiday in Greece,Where I am currently sat around a pool writing this post.

I could be sat around the beach in my swimwear sweating to death as I'm covered up in a towel or I could embrace what I have in my lovely tankini set.

Of course at the back of my mind theirs the devil saying "everyone's looking at you because your huge" when really no ones  looking at me or judging me for what I look like.Or even if they are their judging eyes aren't going to affect my day!

I'm not embarrassed to say that I know I am on the larger side and always admit it in a jokey way that I'm huge but I'm healthy and strong so why am I complaining.

Our bodies are the only ones we're going to have and yes we can change them but maybe their not so bad as they are and we should be proud! 

We're all so harsh on ourselves and should love our bodies more for all the good they 

do for us!

I'm really interested in learning more about self love so if anyone has any tips or book recommendations,I'd love to hear from you!

Thank you 

Carla X

Making a pact with myself

Making a pact with myself to have monthly check ins with myself,to see if I've achieved anything: if I'm happy with people who I'm surrounded by and how my mental health and wellbeing are,to see if I'm closer to reaching my goals.

To cut down on social media and stop comparing myself to others,or be influenced by other peoples lives.

To wear what I want and to be more optimistic and nice to everyone I meet,to try and be a sunshine on someone's day.

Carla 😊

Tangled / PT 2

I'm 2015 I did a blog post labelled Tangled,to sum it up it was about being confused or overthinking.

For a while now I've been feeling really down so I thought I would extend on the subject.

Our feelings and emotional well being are personal and sometimes quite a touchy subject that can be painful to talk about. As we as human beings don't like opening up and being vulnerable.

In my opinion if we all talked about our feelings more often,then some of us may be reassured in knowing it's ok to feel not great, that we're not alone.

Otherwise your left with only your own worries of tangled emotions swishing around in your brain almost like a washing machine spinning around all day long.

I'll be ok and then find myself feeling sad and unfulfilled and questioning every life decision I've made.I compare myself to everyone on social media who is my age and how amazing their careers are as apposed to mine.

Please let me know if you feel even similar in the slightest.

Do you think we should talk about our emotions more ?

Carla X

Girl Boss Netflix Review

I want more.....Girl boss I physically need more Sophia in my life.

I'm praying that there are many more seasons to come.

Well that was emotional.I feel like I'm in a new chapter of my life now.

I have just spent my weekend watching Girl Boss season one.13x30 min episodes = 6.5 hours of my life watching a Netflix series and I don't regret a second of it.

Wow that all just blurted out into words!Get if together Carla.

Inspired

Motivated 

Fun

Ambitious are just a few words used to described my emotions whilst watching Girl Boss.

"Sophia, an anarchist misfit, discovers a passion for fashion, becoming an unlikely businesswoman in the process. As her business grows, however, she has to learn to cope with life as her own boss."

Britt Robertson fitted the part perfectly and she is one of my favourite Actresses so I was even more obsessed.

Girl boss is a greats series for Teenage/young adults to show them to never stop dreaming,you are capable of anything you desire.

I feel really empowered and am definitely going to buy Sophia Amaruso Girl boss book.

GIRLS ROCK

The show really connected with me and I feel passionate about it. I've been thinking a lot lately about my career and to start acting on my dreams,as times only passing by.

What's even more awesome is that the show is actually based loosely off of real events that happened to Sophia.

"Adulthood is where dreams go to die"

I would 100% recommend Girl Boss to you and I see a future for more series.

Now it's time for me to start working on my dreams and for me to be a #GIRLBOSS

Have you read girl boss ?

"Love you in case I die!" 

Carla X